“If God gives you something you can do, why in God’s name wouldn’t you do it?” ~Stephen King
This quote has severely affected me this week. You see I love to write. Lately, I’ve been bogged down with the idea that maybe I misheard God directing me to write. The world is loud and when you tune into its noisiness it drowns out God’s voice.
This week I read this quote by Stephen King and was reminded that Satan will try to lie to you and make you so busy that you forget or push away what God has called you to do. This week is where this lie ends.
I’ve spend too much time listening to the world and not enough time listening to God. It is my confession this week. It is easy to get caught up in the busyness of life because the to do lists get longer and your responsibilities get higher. I’ve allowed a task master to push me around thinking I was doing the right thing because I felt and appeared organized and put together.
I have forgotten the gift of writing that my Savior has given me. Now this doesn’t mean I am the best writer. It simply means that when I write I know it is what I am meant to do. I get to write about my Abba, other people’s struggles and joy. I also get to write about my life which has been a great therapy for dealing with my life. Not everyone thinks the way I do…clearly, and that is okay.
Take my brother, his greatest therapy is working out. He feels that physical fitness is his calling. It’s a purpose placed on your heart that you would feel as if you would die, as if you can’t breathe in enough oxygen to sustain your life. Some people don’t have a hard time living out their purpose. For me it’s been a lot more difficult because of a lie. A lie from the enemy that I am not good enough to do what I love. Many people have dealt with shame and I am one of them.
Shame is like a hurdle you think you aren’t capable to jump over. It takes someone pointing out that this shame is merely a lie. I have allowed this shame to make me think (and maybe they do) that people hate me. I’m not talking about one or two people, I’m talking about everyone here. This shame twists the vision you have about yourself into thinking it’s real and that you can’t fix it.
So if you find yourself having trouble admitting that you are a writer, an artist, maybe even a musician…keep your eyes open to the lie that may be shielding you from embracing who God has called you to be.
What about you? Do you have a calling placed on your life that has been hard to embrace?