I asked this same question just a few months ago in my post on January 1 called 2013: What Are You Waiting For?. It is now August and I have found I have not asked myself this same question as often as I should have.
So what am I waiting for?
The person who reminded me of this question is Jeff Goins. Last night I was at a conference where he was the speaker. I thought it was pretty funny that he asked the same question to the audience. At the time he asked us all this question I thought I am waiting to be a published writer. As if that would validate that I am a writer. This has been by far the most important question we have to ask ourselves when we have a dream that is not reality yet. In fact I am writing this in the Starbucks at the Dallas airport because I cannot hold my answer in any longer. It is as if I have this burning in my hands that if I do not write this than I would be wasting my life and the purpose God has given me.
In all honesty I am a writer without being recognized and without being published. While being published is a dream of mine it does not validate my worth.
My worth is found in Jesus Christ and it was found and established a long time ago. Being found is not a goal or something I will one day achieve. I already have it because I was chosen to be a writer. I was hand picked long before I was born. Although I may feel that I am not where I want to be that is okay. Just like God is not done with you, He is not done with me either.
I am okay with being a writer that writes to glorify God without being recognized, without having hundreds or thousands of email subscribers, or even comments.
I was born to be a writer! I was hand picked, called on, and set apart by the creator of the Earth.
My problem lately has been I was waiting to be discovered by an agent or a publishing company. In reality God just wants me to write and what He does with that is His will.
I have also had this illusion that just because I got paid to hold a certain title that is who I am. As if I could not claim the title of “Writer” because I do not get paid for it. In the end it does not matter if I get paid to write because I am already a writer. I am done with waiting for someone else to discover me. I have already been discovered by God for a special purpose. I have been called on and set apart and to me there is nothing more special than that.
Our worth is not found in our critics or our supporters who think we are good at or maybe not so good at what we do. Our worth is found in Jesus and who He created us to be whether the world pays us for it or not.