I hear this term and I can’t help but to think of a story. Our story. Each one of us possessing our own tale of all that’s transpired in our lives…what’s taken place. Many of us? We wish we could change our past, right? We wish with our entire being that we could go back and push the reset button on life. But you’re not alone in this. I, too wish I could undo all that I’ve done.
See, growing up, I knew the difference between right and wrong. I had my morals pretty well set in place, and considered myself as having a decent head on my shoulders, too. I was driven, and knew the direction I wanted to take in life. However, the choices I made? They never included God. He wasn’t in the picture, wasn’t one I consulted or thought about on a daily basis, and by no means was He the foundation of my life.
Not at all.
Things worked well like this for a while (so I thought). Everything was going as planned you could say. I was on my own, independent, and in control. Life was perfect…until it wasn’t.
What I failed to realize was my journey—everyone’s journey in fact—never stays consistent, stable or constant. Our paths are destined to wind. Troubles occur, poor decisions get made, and the regrets we never had the pleasure of knowing now consume our minds…our lives. For me personally, it’s not like God wasn’t trying to get my attention. There were plenty of moments where the Lord tried to reach me before the Enemy did. But I didn’t listen. I made stupid choices, did dumb things, and jeopardized every relationship I held most dear. Hard times ensued. My weaknesses were preyed upon, my vulnerability exposed. The person and the reputation I had once held dear, was no longer. I found myself under attack and in need of my Savior…in need of God.
It appeared that the Enemy could take a girl with the best intentions (me) and convince her to fall victim in a way she never thought possible. And all this took place because Jesus wasn’t the center of my life. He wasn’t my foundation. Our relationship had yet to be established…and I was suffering terribly because of it, and all those mistakes I was making.
See, the young woman I developed into wasn’t ready for what life would throw her way. I couldn’t handle situations that varied from my norm because I didn’t have God at my core. Right and wrong? They often get skewed when you’re not equipped to handle such battles—when you’re living this life separate from Christ. When you don’t have a firm foothold in your faith, the Enemy can persuade you into thinking your lack of good judgment is okay. And it’s then—in those precise moments–where he takes aim.
Girls, we’ve all made mistakes. Each and every one of us has sinned in some way, shape, or form. Indeed, we have regrets. But God can take each one of our stories—our testimony—and He can use it for good. He can break all that bad we’ve found our way into and use it for His glory.
It’s in Christ that we find out who we are and what we’re living for.
–Ephesians 1:11 (The Message)
Jenny Lee Sulpizio is a Christian mom, wife, and author of the recently released, For the Love of God: A Woman’s Guide to Finding Faith and Getting Grace. She and her husband Michael reside in the uber warm state of Arizona with their three children. Connect with Jenny online by visiting her website: www.jennyleesulpizio.com